Why do I crave more alone time?

What is wrong with me?

I asked this question to myself so many times.

Why I prefer being alone? Is there something wrong with me?

Because this is a known fact that we humans are social creatures and have to adapt to our group environment in order to survive.

So I constantly tried to force myself to be more outgoing, act in a way that is socially acceptable, what my grandma or professors expect me to be.

All of it did help me to gain more interpersonaly and communication skills and eventually made me more successful, less annoying(yeah imagine I was more than now) in general.

If I never pushed myself out of my comfort zone I wouldn’t be able to move across the globe from small country to the USA alone and work as a medical doctor.

Alone ≠ Broken

But I finally understood that there is nothing wrong with craving solitude.

Some of us just don’t thrive in groups. And our desire for alone time isn’t a flaw, it is a body’s way of calling for something great.

There’s a version of aliveness that happens when no one’s watching.

No small talk, no fixing your posture, no smiling because you are afraid they’ll think you are snooty, self-absorbed.

When you eliminate all that overthinking, stimulation something magical happens. You feel peace, clarity.

Just you — unfiltered, unbothered — doing the thinking, feeling, creating you can’t do when the room is full.

Perhaps you've also felt the guilt creep in. For canceling. For needing space. For not calling back right away, not responding fast enough, Not feeling “on” when everyone else seems to thrive in the noise.

But what if desire for solitude isn’t a flaw to fix, but a compass trying to steer us back to ourselves?

When Connection Feels Complicated

We live in a world that rewards visibility. Fast replies. Group chats. Eye contact. But not all connection feels nourishing. Not all friendship feels safe.

Sometimes we talk and still don’t feel heard. Sometimes we explain ourselves and still feel misunderstood. And sometimes… we just want to BE without having to explain why.

You might still love people. You might still show up. But deep down, you know: The real processing happens when you’re alone.

Why I Chose This Space… and you might too..

I finally understood the cost of constantly trying to change myself in order to blend in.

These are what you lose at exchange of losing your authenticity: energy, clarity, joy.

These are the side effects: anxiety, depression, apathy, difficulty focusing.

That’s why I’m here — writing this, starting a channel. Not to become some polished voice on the internet, but to speak the way I think. Freely. Visually.

And maybe, in the process, find others who think and feel this way too.

People who crave depth, not constant contact. Who love ideas more than small talk. Who feels alive in silence, and still want to be understood.

This Isn’t Advice

I’m not here to fix you. Or fix me. I don’t have five steps to inner peace.

What I have is experience. Curiosity. And a few systems I’ve built along the way — to navigate your focus seamlessly, manage overstimulation, and heal emotional fatigue.

My medical background helped me to understand human body and mind, but most of what I know came from living, surviving and doing the extra inner work by reading, researching and filtering through endless videos, tedtalks and podcasts.

If that resonates with you, then welcome. Rest assured you are not alone, you will learn alongside with me.

thanks for reading…:) (pinky swear this is a genuine smile)